I recently moved to a new city in order to make a fresh start, collect myself, and figure out exactly what it is that I want to do with my life from here.
In the process of exploring the unknown areas of the map, uncovering one little dark spot at a time, I realized yesterday that a very important part of being self sufficient and independent is becoming more self directed. I have this tendency to kind of just float in life, to latch onto people and take my cues from those around me regarding what direction I should go with hobbies, writing, jobs etc. I've realized that I need to stop relying on other people to give me that direction and find my own path.
I've blamed this on my natural role as a healer in the past, pointing to the fact that I'm too busy helping other people find their paths to really start trying to find my own, but all of that is just an excuse. As a friend of mine also realized in doing the same thing, you must be right with yourself and find your own path before you can lead others out of their own confusion and darkness.
In other words, you can't lead the level 1 peasant out of the mines full of angry, homicidal kobolds unless you yourself have leveled up enough to defeat them. And now that I think about it, taking candles from angry, homicidal kobolds was probably a horrible idea to start with. Who asked me to do that again?
It's time to be my own quest giver.
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